“Each death has its own reason”
Each time when a beloved person passes away, pain fills our hearts... Our hearts tell us that people are meant for life not for death. Intuitively, we feel that our mission is to reflect life more and more fully. When this doesn't happen and a person passes away, we are left bewildered – asking why this happens. To understand the meaning of death – we have to grasp the purpose of life. Watching life, we see that everything, existing on this world, undergoes constant transformation. All things change, and nothing disappears. Why are we afraid of death? The reason is that unknown scares us. We don't know, in any detail, what is to be found on the other side – in the non-existence. Yet each day of our life is adventure, a step to the unknown, doesn't it? We don't know any particularities of what will be found on the other side. But we can be ascertained that life would be there. Life is present here as well as there – in the non-existence. Death is neither good, nor bad. Life's finish is not an end but a new beginning.
Words, words, words....
It's all clear. At least to me. What a pity. A wonderful man – victim of the show business – is gone. Again. And we thought that Michael cannot be entangled with drugs. What was the price paid by him? How much did he hurt? – physically as well as mentally. It is cruel.
So many young and talented people had left us like that.... And now is Michael's turn. These talents could give more to the world. This may sound egotistically, but I know it's true. And I say it because he loved to make art. We loved him for that and for being handsome, sexy, good-hearted, sensitive, noble, strange, a tornado that takes us away and breaks us down for life.
There is a theory that other people or a religion stand behind Michael and determine his development throughout the years. And it is obvious – the change was visible: clothing, appearance, psychological state. We learn that during the last years, he was quite unstable and too suspicious...
As a whole – the influence exerted over him started during the years when he conquered the world with his music. Dressing style (tight shirts and pants), movements with sexual elements, satanic symbols... all that is a suggestion, everything is symbolism. We talk about a victim of sexual exploitation. Your behaviour is controlled in full, and you cannot realize that everything is imported from the outside – your thoughts and wishes do not belong to you. However at one point, Michael realized what happened, starting to withdraw – the attack followed. Michael was very brave, one of the few brave people who talked about these puppeteers. His fans did not make sense of what he was talking about. His death was a logical finish of an enlightened soul that had a special place on the tribune: he could tell the truth, reaching other people... The media makes us assume that things are quite simple but unfortunately, they are not. Nobody wants to believe that international organizations are just hypocritical- caring about what you eat, drink, and breathe little to none. You don't want to know that people and little babies are killed in Iraq because someone wants to be rich. That's all Michael wanted to say, though not as openly. He knew it all along. Remember his movie – he fought against the person trying to tempt children with drugs. This is the world business - paying the bills of the world's elite. The fight against narco-cartels is just hypocrisy. It occurs that a considerable part of them are former military men, generals, and so on. There is nothing better than a drug intoxicated mankind ready to hear that this is the reality. Moreover, they are happy man. Do you imagine all people looking like Courtney Love, Britney Spears, or Madonna? The people who withdraw finish like Michael.
They know that he was loved by many people. So, they will take advantage of him, even if this means to remove the stigma from his name. They will take advantage of the big cult, surrounding Michael, especially after his death.
I find it both, strange and very sad that whenever the name Michael Jackson is mentioned, the first thing that the media and people discuss is his nose, encroachment on children, monster appearance (this is not true!!!) or skin whitening. Why do we have to focus on terrible stories?! I read the texts of his songs at the moment, and I cannot imagine why people do this?! Is there another singer with such lively texts?! Each text contains words such as "bright days" "light" "happiness" and other positive things. Why was there no one to show his good side when he was alive?!?!?! WHY?! Despite all, he preserved his good heart and the smile on his face. I am hurting so much for a person I don't know!
Why does no one criticize Madonna when she appears at concerts as Jesus Christ, nailed to a cross?! Why don't they publicize facts about 50 cent and his empire, built on drugs?! Why?! At the moment, snapshots from Michael's concerts pass through my head – he is smiling, playing with children at the hospital. How is it possible that the whole world ridiculed such a talent, such a good-hearted man....
He was destroyed by Bashir and all sorts of blood suckers who sued him. He was devastated by all people who claimed that he whitened his skin, slept in barchamber, intended to buy the bones of the elephant-man, and was gay; he was destroyed by policemen who locked him in a smelly toilet for an hour... Michael was too sensitive to take all that. His addiction to medications does not surprise me at all. Music and fans are most important in his life. He lived to make his fans happy and to send a message to the world – we should become better persons. Then, the accusations started – everyone spited on him, and this blow was too excessive for his delicate soul. They tried to make him appear as a freak and a monster, fornicating with innocent children. I think that a part of him died back then. He was dejected but no one could take his talent and good heart away. He reached out for something that will vaporize the nightmare, even for a couple of hours. For him, it was an everyday hell, to live like that....
About addiction to medications – my view is that dependency cannot be controlled. You start with the lowest doze and gradually increase, thinking that you control the situation. The same is valid for drug and nicotine dependency, I may say. However, I hold the opinion, shared in two of the topics – that all people view Michael as a money making machine. Probably, his own mother had to interfere – after all, she was among his closest people. I've read that she had made attempts to help through the babysitter. Yet, it was too late. Michael felt alienated from all people and fired her a bit afterwards. What he needed was psychological help, although it is hard to impose such a decision to a sick person. His soul suffered and the soul is difficult to heal. We know what brought dependency into the picture. But I will repeat – his family is not to blame for not helping. It is extremely hard to talk to a person in such a condition. See, you may say, his sister made an attempt and he refused any kind of contact. Such people are voluntarily self-isolated. Everyone who tries to stop them will turn into an enemy.
We can ask ourselves – was Michael aware what he did to himself, taking all these medications? It is my personal view that he was aware.... totally clear about it. He took them, wanted them, and got addicted: this was a personal choice. This doesn't turn him into a weak person or a drug addict in my eyes. He was the only person who knew what he felt. If you think about it, many celebrities look for an escape in medications. Some manage to overcome the addiction, but others fail. It's really sad but whatever happened to Michael during the last night – he was aware of the possible complications. It would have happened sooner or later...sad, unjust, unacceptable, painful for all of us, but a fact. Whether this doctor or another – it doesn't really matter. The problem is that no one helped. Or – maybe, someone tried after all? We can't figure out the real situation. The loss is huge... for his children, family, for us, for the children in need, and the world as a whole. After all, he gave so much to everyone and wanted just a peace of mind. He looked for calmness through medications and probably found rest in death. I feel anger, sadness, and hopelessness. There is hardly a person who thinks that Michael didn`t know what he was doing to himself. He was too intelligent to not suspect where medications would take him. I think that he surrendered to everything around him. You ask many questions about life at 50. I am certain, and I will continue to believe that Michael spent his best years in a wonderful way.... helping thousands of people through his talent and big heart.
He started taking painkillers after the surgeries, treating the terrible burnings, and the stress from the slops at the trials. Moreover, visits of many sick children are emotionally exhausting for the heart and the body – this has reflected on a physically delicate, sensitive, and empathetic person. When we add the absence of childhood and a normal for a child sleep, we will see why he suffered from insomnia and slept 3 hour per day. This amount of sleep is far from the normal sleeping hours of a person. That's why poor Michael resorted to painkillers and sleeping pills. Other celebrities take drugs because of whims: they have tried it all and go for alcohol or drugs. As of him, I am thousand percent convinced that he would never resort to drugs if many people didn`t “help” him. Have you heard of him abusing alcohol and doing stupid things because of boredom as other stars? I haven't because he didn`t do it. I feel sad. It is inhumane to bear such a pressure: visits to so many children, burnt people... dying people – the pictures you see exhaust the psyche. In addition – you have so many engagements and concerts while the media is accusing you... and much more...
Obviously, you will get exhausted and dispirited by the nature of humans. I don't know whether we will understand what happened to Michael. How much can a person bear, especially a sensitive and empathic person like him?
Now, they can't reach him.
P.P. Each resemblance to real physical persons is accidental. This text is a figment of mind and the author does not bear responsibility for any caused moral or real damages.
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